i dont feel good right now..in fact since the past 2 days...i didnt know why...ok liar...i know what's goin on actually tapi tak kan aku nak menjaja personal story ku di sini...tp apalah guna nya ade blog kalau tak dpt meng"impress" my feelings?haiihhhh ok2 stop the crap..
the thing is now i got to know this one guy la...it's still early and i defined it as ONLY friends (how cliche is that kan...).but after got to know him a bit i started to think like he's the kind of guy i would like to get to know better..despite of our different age which is 14!hahaaa..ok dont laugh!
but i found him as a great companion..meaning as a friend la at this moment..never know la in future..
tapi lately ni kenapa aku rasa bila die tak call or msg me i felt the feelings yg i didnt like ok...i hate to wait..seriously...i have an issues with patience..my mind would occur a few long listed possibilities...teruk la aku ni...sick!i tried..and really tried hard to put a barrier in my heart towards him...aku dah penat la nk hoping for something i'm not sure which and where it would lead me to..but deep down inside me i had this emotions that i want this to end happily...insyallah..
so bila benda2 ni melanda antara perkara2 yang akan melanda aku adalah:
1.gelisah...resah...tido tak lena makan tak kenyang(cehh poyo...yang tu dua memang tak kan berubah pape pun ok)
2.curiosity...loads of it towards the particular person la.this one i want to avoid pretty sure..tp akan dgn tiba2 menerjah jugak kat pale aku ni!!
3.am i did something wrong to him or anything yg aku cakap yg buat die tak suka?aiyooo i'm gonna be mad la like this
4.mood swing...tapi now aku tgh control..especially depan mama..coz she's really good at describing my feelings and mood eventho aku dah coverline yg sgt cemerlang..(yelaa kata mak..of course la instinct kuat kat anak)
5.rase taknak pakai handphone skang ni...mcm kalau lg dekat fon kat aku lagi tension aku dibuatnya..
are u guys feeling the same way too if it's happened?aku rasa mcm aku sorg je makhluk yg sesat jadi camni..
i hate this part right here :-(
p/s:i dont know why with the fonts...aku dh tukar bnyk kali pun die tak betul gakkk...huhuu..sabar2...
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Hmmm, the age difference x kisah pun. Tp dier x kawen lagi? Quite a shocker gak. Lelaki slalu sure kawen awal.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I'm pretty sure I shouldn't tell u to be careful, sbb anda lagi berpengalaman dr saya. I hope things will smooth over soon. So keep me posted ya? And aku mau juga detail2 mamat ni. :D
PS : Blogger font mmg gile sometimes. So kene tukar manually kat 'edit html' tu.
he's a single dad..kalo age 42 tak kawin2 gak somwthing wrong kan hahaha...i need to spill this to u la...i'll keep u posted dont worry :-)
ReplyDeleteDo spill. Cuma not so early in the morning. Saya masih berkabung dlm selimut pon. Time difference is 6 hours. Sni lambat 6 hours. :)
ReplyDeleteI hope things are going well over there! And keep blogging~